Hi guys! I’ve been itching to write this post for a few days, but just now have access to my computer! Phew!
After my eyelid mini-surgery, and really for like a month before that, I wasn’t supposed to wear eye makeup. To a lot of you, this might sound like no big deal, major eye-roll-inducing, #firstworldproblems, but hear me out.
I am not the girl that must wear a full face of makeup everywhere I go. I will definitely run to the grocery store, hang out with friends, go to the gym, etc. without wearing any makeup. So I think in my mind I assumed I was 100% comfortable without makeup on in almost all situations. (Wrong, Caitlin.)
The crazy thing is that I could only not wear EYE make up. But without just that one component, I felt so much less feminine, pretty, and confident. I noticed this especially in situations where I was seeing people that I see less frequently, situations where I felt a little uncomfortable, and times when I would normally be all dolled up. I think God decided I needed this procedure right before the holidays to teach me something. 😉
I felt paranoid that people would wonder why I wasn’t wearing makeup, think I looked different/weird, and that something must be wrong. (Especially after most of the swelling/bruising went away and I just looked kind of tired.)
Reality check: I’m sure that the lack of eye makeup on my face didn’t alarm anyone. Did anyone even notice? Probably not. So why would I worry about it?
Reflecting on those feelings now serves as a little bit of a wake-up call, because COME ON. It’s eye makeup. Colored powder you wipe on your eyelids, black jelly liquid to coat on your eyelashes, and bright creamy concealer to cover up dark circles. NO BIG DEAL, right?
We shouldn’t rely on makeup for our confidence, like, ever. Because when you really think about it, it’s pretty silly. Plus, our confidence should not be rooted in what we look like in the first place. Feel confident because you make people smile, are a trustworthy confidant, are intelligent, etc. etc. etc. That’s what really matters.
With that being said, I will most definitely keep wearing makeup. And I will allow myself to feel a little bit more confident when I put makeup on. But I hope that I can remember that I am pretty without mascara and concealer. I don’t want to keep saying, “Oh I’m ugly today” or “Sorry I look gross/like a boy” when I see a friend when I don’t have makeup on. Because even though I’m “okay” with it, and I’m just “joking”, negative thoughts and words are negative thoughts and words. Which have no place in my life!
When I have daughters one day I want to teach them that they are pretty when they don’t have makeup on because God created them in his image. And I want them to know they don’t need to apologize for having a bare face. (Even if they inherit my non-existent eyebrows.)I hope you can learn something from my little no-makeup experience. I sure did! I’m going to remind myself that I’m pretty without makeup 0n, and that my worth really lies in something other than outside appearance.
Let’s be confident and happy in 2017, with or without our beloved mascara.